I Know I'm Lost

well that fucking sucks.

i guess i didn’t try at all did i? 

ouch :/

wow

i can’t sleep. i can’t eat. lets see how long i can even function. time for work.

fuck.

why can’t i just be happy like everyone else. For once give me a reason to smile from ear to ear. 

i’ve got nothing.

So when you feel your heart sink into your chest, Don’t forget everything is okay in the end. We are not okay but this is not the end yet

bring back once was mine, or was it even mine to begin with?

I think I’ve been holding on to things for far to long. That the nostalgia is slowly tearing me apart. 

I am tired of begging for things that I’ve probably deserved. or far better off deserved more.

I am exhausted of days that drag on and I question why I even bother. I always say I am done yet there is something that will always pull me back. I care? or I care too much. Who knows? Or maybe I shouldn’t care at all, that would make it easier. But what kind of person would that leave me to be? That isn’t me.

I’ve got so much to give yet nothing to expect.

I have nothing left. they’ve taken everything from me. 

For once bring me back to what was once mine. Take me back to when things were just fine. & walk back away from crossing that thin line. 

I miss you so much, but you’re gone. sleep well.

& I love you, but how should you know? You don’t even see it all.

and why should you even care?

go on carry on.